I am Cannon "Cole" Pharaoh McClendon, the second and the last living son of my house. i am now 20 years old and i know some things of the world I was born in, but know more about the philosophies of the world, yet i know little to nothing about myself until i made conversation to "the man in the mirror" and i shall tell you of who i am
i am a quirky, timid and slightly naive lot. i am quirky because i have some mania within me as well as things that make me odd; my love for arts of any forme and want to have art in my life, but my tastes are different then most people. have knowledge that many people would consider useless or random, some find it useful, i am known as a weirdo
i am timid to new thing but is will to give then a chance unless it goes against my beliefs. i am quite shy around new people and find it a little hard to make new friends. i am also a romantic in my own way, but just is too shy to say how i feel about someone i "like" and when it does come out, they think i'm a freak (mind you i just say do you think we could have a coffee together sometime and i am being earnest about it)
i am somewhat naive because i learned to trust someone first before i mistrust. willing to listen to opinions and thinking of how it can influence me whether it is for good of for bad.
i love to have my friends by my side because they make me feel like i have some purpose. i try to hold on to my friends even in their plights to help them. i am a good friend to have but the worst enemy. The term your family are your first friends is not true to me. i say that because they are the ones that brought me into the world and therefore, i am in their debt until my death, a life for a life. i love them and all, but to me a family being your friend doesn't make sense to me; and i also consider people who are friends to the family not my friend because they know my parents not me, and the children who are part of the family (the parent's kids) either a stranger and don't even associate with them or a good acquaintance
my family does say i am handsome and any girl would like to have me, or that i'm tall and many people who love to have it. for the handsome part as Colress would say "I disagree" i have bad skin and it won't clear for me and it is hard to even have it permanently clean, i am from time to time a little self conscious of how i look (i just need to grow my mustache and bread)
I am a guardian, defending anyone who would otherwise bring harm whether it is physical, physiological, or spiritual. however that is also my undoing, i am quick to point out what other say but i sometimes do the same. even getting people made at me for defending others or misinterpreting what was done. even with that i do have respect for many people and loathe those who show great disrespect
for the girl thing, to put bluntly i have a dislike for the opposite gender but is slowly fading, for the reasons because 80% of them are weak, petty, shallow, greedy, vain, foolish, and overall blackhearted. i wanted to ask out this one girl, but she got her friend and threaten me that she would castrate me if i asked her friend ever again (thus starting my hatred for the opposite gender) and 20% of them are what every Good man wants but 80% are already taken. the percentage applies to the opposite gender too if your a girl
i am a high school graduate and i also got into college for a bit. but i will tell you i am not too smart (i have basic knowledge of many thing but never above any catagory expect for art) and due to my disabilities; it makes it even harder on me. Intellect doesn't compare to wisdom however, i maybe a B student, but the spiritual know i learn each day holds a bonfire to what i learn, kindling the flame and growing.
i am quite misunderstood, just because i look angry doesn't mean i am angry with anyone, i just naturally look like that; just like a chestnut, i have a rough exterior, but in the inside i am beautiful but people rarely sees it. they also say i should change my outside, i am proud of what i am at the outside, if anyone say to change or do anything about what i look, or even as act/look normal, i say screw you i'm happy they way i am, mind as well get over it because you'll never understand
this one is a personal thing but ever i had someone as a friend for a while and they don't respond or don't wanna be friends with me anymore, i do despair because i wondered what did i do wrong and it eats at me. i know everyone is not going to like you, but i know that if someone doesn't like you they IS a reason why, and not just because.
as i was born part Black and part Italian, i never knew that world would hate my kind. someone told me i was born two races and both shall love me, but that is far from the truth, i am hated by all except for those who are born as me and even then those who were born 2 races hate each other. i never understood why color mattered to anyone, in truth we are all the same race, "The Race of Man". as the aura (chakra) within the third eye explains: the third eye is the aspect of truth, seeing the big picture and is blocked but Illusions.
this is my bio of a 20 year old lot. if anyone does take the time to read this, i hope some of you could understand me and many other and see them of who or what they are
Listening to: Beauty and the Beast